03/03/2011
you on the floor & ass cold on my shin, this time it’s me in pieces for you & all out of concert & had I known it was going to be that kind of night I wouldn’t have had those last five drinks, those few more hits in the studio, in the hall, in the bar & the girl saying You’re an asshole but she won’t tell us her name & we keep asking her what it was & her not telling. she alliterates, she says. she says she alliterates & that’s all she’ll say. not worth it & we don’t care & now she wants to tell us but we’re on our way out the door & people keep saying my name & she just wishes they would stop. the teacher on the street in San Francisco gone bass & stomping; two minutes previous them pooling cash, arms out to hold the cab & me saying No I don’t want to fuck her, everyone saying Someone’s got to fuck her & why it’s me I don’t know: what, am I the pretty one?& do they hate me?& I’m not the one with my mouth full of wax, that wasn’t me drinking the candles, not that night & anyway that was half an hour before pooling the cash & five minutes after the candles we’re out back in the 10x10 with the ladder & the teacher’s the only one with a chair (when I said bass I meant fish) holding court, my cigarettes her scepters for twelve minute tyrannies & we keep saying Don’t encourage her she’s just a self-important sad little loser girl minus discernment & she’ll take the attention from where it comes but they encourage her & I say again No I don’t want to fuck her; say a word: decompose. [her stupid fantasy unwritten & pull back & up & shoot from above & she at x0,y0 when 0 is top right; me rolling away x-5,y-5 straight & the others they drip, drip off but unbound & we’re all riding together but no one is going the same way. & the teacher alone, decomposed, unbound] no; here: a musical no music unscripted but sudden for a second the three of us know our moves and we dance away from her. the girl who calls me asshole makes me think all this. I want you (in that one thing brings up another) to refer to nothing.
c. then
& you demonic in your drive. you the smartest girl, phasing state & out. misaligned: you mad ellipse & I call you Halley but Halley Trunk, as in truncate as in shorter as in reference to periodicity on a much smaller scale as in you’re here again & O my god thank you.
---------- Drew Burk is the fiction editor at Spork (along with Andrew Shuta), and Jamison and Jake and Richard are the poetry editors and Jamison's down in Bisbee in a trailer at the Shady Dell celebrating his birthday. And yeah, I'm a little jealous, since that place is super cool. The place has no internet, no signal, no nothing, so he can't do the update. Why, then, can't Richard or Jake do the update? Well, it goes a little something like this: Jake and Richard refuse to learn how to use the software to do the updating, and yeah, we're working on getting a more modern content management system in place, but there's all sorts of things that we have to figure out before we can migrate to the new system. So in the interest of having an update up on the site at the time we do our normal updates I've gone and found a poem thing I wrote (did I mention I'm fiction?) a while ago while trying to get a reluctant poet to get the hell to work on his poetry. I wrote a poem a day and sent it to him, the question attached to each: Is it really so hard? Look, I wrote another poem. And another. And another. This is one of them. There's lots of things I do in here, on purpose things intended to annoy poets. I hope, in some small way, I achieve my purpose. The ampersands annoy even me.
Happy Holidays.
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