When I answer the telephone it is Cleo Lane again,
or someone pretending to be Cleo Lane, or someone
calling from the number of Cleo Lane and Cleo Lane
and I have become close friends if for no other reason
than his number is constantly calling mine. But I am not
nor never will be who the number of Cleo Lane is looking
for, I am someone else completely but they gave me this
number which apparently is also or was also the number
of an entirely different person for which the folks at the residence
of Cleo Lane have a great and unending affection.
And they’re always asking for some girl who is not here
and they never believe me when I say she is not here
it is only I here, the big ole me, yea, and not and never
the person for which they are asking. If organized religion
really wanted to get organized they would hire a thousand
telemarketers not to market in the traditional sense, but in the new
sense which says Buy me or else. All this would entail
is calling everyone in the middle of the night and saying something
like You will go to hell for that or God sees everything
and then hanging up to leave the person on the other end wondering
is this a joke or something more. Because every joke is really
something more, really some way to get at the deeper stuff
which was what Corso said about humor, but there is nothing
humorous anymore about the hundred calls I keep getting
from the residence of Cleo Lane, which makes me wonder
who the fuck does Cleo Lane think he is, and who exactly am I
if I can be so easily confused with a number issued at random
by the invisible people in the telephone receiver. And if Frank O’Hara
called me from the dead I would write every goddamn word down
but when the good people of Cleo Lane call I don’t write anything down,
except that I am writing this down so maybe we’re all really just one
big AT&T commune set to motion by the almost endless formations
of ten numbers arranging themselves into these beautiful codes
that mean nothing on the surface but when taken as a distinction
between one person and the next mean everything and mean even
we are exactly who the book says we are even if we were once someone else.
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