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Hoodie vacuum hole face: I am dead because I am not a man.<\/p>\n
Shout outs for the severed action figure limbs in abattoir drains.<\/p>\n
This college town\u2019s sorority teeth blitzkrieg announcement of shoes<\/p>\n
upon the mascot blonde tipped beerstain hate<\/p>\n
with a capital 8. This sports jersey mesh is a rewiring of nails and flesh.<\/p>\n
Sirens<\/p>\n
I am listening<\/p>\n
and scaling fences to escape with sweatlines of mesh pulp human body cords<\/p>\n
I take hand by hand over into the night of you. You are a hole and a hole<\/p>\n
alone.<\/p>\n
Judgmental wiring net screaming the awfulness of the neighborhood to sleep.<\/p>\n
I find this impotent totality<\/p>\n
tremendously boring<\/p>\n
say the tissue wafts<\/p>\n
of the thin skull shavings to the hot wind.<\/p>\n
In analog glitch I let myself go to the highway.<\/p>\n
On the unknown time of night highway I yelled because of the nothing. Void me.<\/p>\n
Suburban nosejobs and twine of recollected eyelashes<\/p>\n
you can experimentally surgically rearrange the way I feel about you<\/p>\n
but the latticing to critical organs is too tight.<\/p>\n
I\u2019ll gush to death as usual.<\/p>\n
Don\u2019t give up believe in yourself I<\/p>\n
don\u2019t know how to stop vomiting.<\/p>\n
Thus I am a waterfall thus<\/p>\n
I am a rainbow.<\/p>\n
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No matter where the sun turns<\/p>\n
it\u2019s day.<\/p>\n
Meanwhile on earth<\/p>\n
the cold sun mumbles to long landscape portraits. Fields blur like jug-caught light.<\/p>\n
Farm equipment on the long and lonely immortal spine<\/p>\n
writes love poems<\/p>\n
seeking attention. Consignment auction keyboards listen defused in my trunk.<\/p>\n
The handful of trees lean staggering on tractors. It\u2019s a time of day.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s my day to drive. I feel like I am wearing a hat of some kind but I\u2019m not.<\/p>\n
Here the sun is colder than in most places.<\/p>\n
The sun sighs a little further away from this Midwestern place<\/p>\n
like a bus passenger next to someone draped in a sheet of cold white sweat<\/p>\n
who says what they think<\/p>\n
tells their life story and what\u2019s going on and what\u2019s the problem<\/p>\n
and falls asleep snoring loudly.<\/p>\n
The clouds wander through parking garages checking iPhone reception<\/p>\n
or rooftop distances they\u2019d like to will themselves most to appear atop. Same here.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m a teleportationalist. I\u2019m an evaporationist.<\/p>\n
What I am is<\/p>\n
just not here.<\/p>\n
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I hold up my hand and do the peace sign in front of this burned husk of everything<\/p>\n
and say there\u2019s nothing wrong. With second best.<\/p>\n
Remonstrate hoodie your local punk scene all fireside.<\/p>\n
You\u2019re the cutest<\/p>\n
say all the lip rings.<\/p>\n
We\u2019re a nation of winners<\/p>\n
say the light poisoning electric all nighters<\/p>\n
eating Monster Thickburgers and drinking ridiculously gigantic sodas.<\/p>\n
We have rock candy 4 AM Olympic Silver blood.<\/p>\n
Black fingernails. Chain pants. Under eye black shopping bags.<\/p>\n
Sun we worship<\/p>\n
lap loudly the
\nindustrial runoff licorice colored water
\nover stones and lawn furniture. Water at last<\/p>\n
O I take it back. Drainpipes and cigarette butt eyelashes grating marrow cages<\/p>\n
I finally get you.<\/p>\n
Let\u2019s pepper our fuck it with smaller fuck its. Let\u2019s stand up against the amps.<\/p>\n
It was thus I raged for the sake. #1 eludes me.<\/p>\n
The rage made me want to destroy.<\/p>\n
The destroy made me want to sad.
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